i dont have much to say. but i still wanted to write something down. im trying to rid my self of some bitterness and what practices ive practiced havent been enough. i need to learn to not worry about the dust on the shelf or the seconds on the dripping. secretly i hope that this energy i emit gets transferred onto a thing who knows how to deal with it better. then, maybe i can bring it all back and devour it all properly that time, and maybe at that point if i am somewhere else mentally – instead of going backwards like i have been – ill be somewhere else with a physical form. til next.