dylan posts letters (11)

i came here today because you always comment on my jewelry and i was feeling especially proud. we didnt speak much and my voice was trapped a few times but i still had an enjoyable time. you invited me to a thing again and even though i told myself i would spend more time away from my room, ill make up an excuse once again and pass out after getting drunk. its become a routine. im afraid of what im asking for in my head please help me.