please ignore the opposite side of this note. i saw two people from high school today that i erased from my memory, for good reason. they ignored me like they didnt back then, but i still got thrown to the curb. this time i wasnt the one left speechless. i watched a person flinch when a tree branch fell in their path and almost hit them. a dog viciously barked at me as i rode by. this city is not for me, and i know i wont find you here but still i am looking – and still i know you exist somewhere far away and still i hope you crawl off my pillow and still i know how possible that will never be. till next time, which is never.